I took this photo my first or second day back in Victoria, BC. So happy.
Life has begun to happen in Victoria and So Purkh is in full swing.
At the time of this posing I have done So Purkh 32 days in a row. And I have resisted it a whole lot. I want to say I don’t know what its doing, but I know its doing something good for me. As of late it seems to be the norm for me to resist meditations and practice but I feel like if I keep going I will overcome the resistance at some point.
There is a wall that I have that I must keep figuring out a way around so that I may live my full potential.
Since beginning So Purkh I have moved to Victoria, been given the visions of a ceremony I will be holding October 2, and have enrolled in hypnotherapy sessions to deal with my PTSD and the offshoots of that – mainly anxiety and depression. I am both stoked and terrified of this and know it is for the best ultimately.
I have learned I tend to choose men who are not available emotionally or physically and I have a fear of intimacy probably stemming from the aforementioned challenge (which is probably why I’ve been single for so long). I am seeing how it affects my day to day life from not being able to work in certain jobs/spaces because I’m too triggered, how I make less than what I’m worth to my general overall lack of trust in the world and the Universe. Remember this post?
I’m finally getting deeper into the answers of these questions and more.
And it’s hard. Really hard. I’m being asked to step up and through more challenging things.
I feel like I went on vacation and now its time to go get deep, dark and dirty for a while. As the cycle of life and conscious growth goes!
I’m still seeking a space to live so posts are probably going to be staggered for the next little while. I’m pretty stoked though because next month I’m going to have a guest blogger, the first one ever!!! Yeah!!
